Fucking Myself

My mind is always in the gutter and that is nothing new to those that even know me a little. With a constant state of thoughts it can take the slightest trigger of a word or thought to put me into a constant state of arousal. As some people would easily cave into to such desire I find the longer I draw it out the better. I can hum for hours and even days. This would be the foreplay to self loving myself.

The longer I wait, the more I want the orgasm worth the build up. This means I am not just going to shove a vibrator down my panties for that quick fix. What I want is a mind numbing orgasm that is a proper reward for waiting so long.

What constitutes as a proper reward? This could mean actually waiting for sex and I realize that is not fucking myself but it happens. Another would be having phone sex with someone that I know will get me off with his words or voice or it's just me watching porn and finally have orgasm after orgasm.

There are certain individuals out there that push me just by reading their words or just thoughts of them. My mind will no longer focus on whatever it is that I need to focus on so I grab my phone and a vibrator and start to watch porn.

At this point the porn needs to be filthy and it all depends on what I am fixated with at the time. I may want to watch gagging cock sucking or anal sex or gang bangs. Sometimes finding the right clip or video leads to this slight panic. I want to get off and it has to be good. It is a compulsion at this point. I have to come and it has be good.

I search and search. My panties are soaked and the vibrator is not on. Not yet. The build up is growing and growing. My eyes and fingers race across the screen.

Still searching.

Still watching.

Not yet.

I can feel the wetness soaking through my panties as I watch more porn clips. I am watching a girl slowly suck a huge cock and her face is in complete lust. In another scene I watch him slowly fuck her ass as he spreads her cunt open for view. This is making me crazy and watching her face in pleasure and all of this is making me ache to come.

Not yet.

My thoughts grow frantic as I continue searching. I am quivering between my legs and I get frustrated when my finger slips to the wrong clip. I want to see a girl wince at getting her ass fucked. I want to see a guy force his cock with no remorse into her tight ass.

Finally, I find what I am searching for. His cock glistening from fucking her cunt and he pushes the head of his cock into her ass. I watch her body and face react to such an invasion and I push the vibrator down into my panties. I feel the wetness moving around and I push the button all the way to the highest setting. I gasp a little when I first feel the soft vibrations massaging my clit. I move the vibrator up and down finding just the right spot. By now the guy is fucking her ass and she is moaning and groaning. I want him to come in her ass. I want to come with him.

His body is shuddering and my body is electrified. I feel myself climbing along with him. I am pushing against the vibrator and my hips are moving. I want to be her. I want to be the girl getting fucked in her ass. I watch his hands grip her ass as he pulls out and pushes back in. My legs are rigid and I am starting to pant quietly. I am getting close and so is he.

She tells him, "Come in my ass, come in my ass." She is rubbing her clit and rocking back against him.

He lets out a groan pulling his cock out as he comes against and on her ass. As he is spurting his orgasm against her I am grunting through an orgasm that makes me growl through clenched teeth. I pull the vibrator away from my sensitive parts and the video has ended. I lie there panting and catching my breath. I marinate in the afterglow of fucking myself just the way I need it and within a few minutes I am at it all over again.

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