Diary of a Pornstar – It’s Real To Me – #Erotica

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Pornstar might not be most girl’s dream job, but it was always mine.  Some may think I do it for the money and maybe some girls do, but I do it for the love of sex and the pleasure my body can bring myself and others.  I’ve always loved sex.   As far back as I can remember I took secret peeks at hidden stashes of old girlie magazines I found in a forgotten box in a dusty corner of my grandparent’s attic.  I remember sneaking one from their house, thinking, “no one will miss just one” as I tucked it under my oversized sweatshirt and hid it for a long time after in my room at home.  I’d flip through it almost hypnotically as I traced the curves of the beautiful bodied women within the pages, not just admiring them, but wanting to be the one that delivered so much beauty and excitement to onlookers, viewers and readers etc.

Some little girls want to be a nurse, or teacher or a doctor, but I wanted to be a Pornstar.  I wanted to make tactful but stunningly erotic videos with my body.  I longed to share myself with the world, to have people watching and looking at me the way I looked at the girls in the magazine’s I pilfered when I was young.  I wanted to know there were people out there gaining pleasure from my body, from my enthusiasm and love of sex that poured out of every scene I filmed, or photo I posed for.  I wanted my viewers to know they weren’t just watching a naked woman having sex for money, I wanted to convey that I wanted to be there, because I did.  I do.  I only take parts where I have natural chemistry with my co-star, because then I will lose myself in the experience and completely forget there’s even a camera in the room.  My love for sex, my love for the male and female bodies and my love for turning others on is all I want conveyed when people come to my scenes.

I hope it turns my viewers on to know that I fantasize all on my own about the scenes I film for them to enjoy, because I am enjoying them too.  For instance, there was one very tasteful and erotic scene with a really good-looking male co-star that I love recalling on the nights my fingers wander down under the sheets and in between my legs.  My mind goes back to the beautiful beach front location we filmed at, it goes back to the palm fronds brushing the glass of the windows behind the bed we used with the waves of the ocean rolling in and out below.  My mind goes back to his dark hair, his sexy eyes, his perfect jawline and my god, that big dick that he REALLY knew how to use.  Was I a Pornstar?  Yes.  However, this was my fun.  I loved this.  All those huge penises and men I clicked with were the real pay to my hobby a.k.a. living I earned.

He and I actually hung out the night before the shoot, we drank and laughed and I knew this would be a fun one.   Anytime there’s high chemistry, that is the perfect cocktail for the most amazingly real scene.  I laid back on the fluffy white, Sunday cabin looking bed in a little black cotton pajama set.  M co-star in a chair across the room watching, I remove my shorts and spread my legs, loving the fact that he’s taking it all in as I do.  I slowly reach down between my legs and with a smile on my face for him I indulge in what I’d been waiting for since the moment the shoot began…to show off my beautiful sexuality and to pleasure myself while helping the rest of the world pleasure themselves and each other.

As the scene continued my pussy became increasingly wet, my fingers rubbing directly over my clit and every so many strokes reaching further down to take a dip inside myself.  My legs spread wider and my heart rate picked up, looking over and seeing my hot co-star in only tight black boxers, stroking that hard-on that I am the one providing him, god being a Pornstar is sexy and I truly love my job in these moments.  I make eye contact with him as I continue fingering my throbbing pussy which is aching to cum by now and so I dig deeply inside with several fingers, thoroughly appreciating the stretching sensation of several in me at once, pressing firmly against the side walls of my pussy.

By now I was so into the scene the cameras no longer existed.  It was just me and this perfect, handsome, sexy man as far as I was concerned.  I wanted to fully experience him, and I wanted to do it naturally, so I did, and the scene was magnificent, as were the multiple orgasms that easily flowed through me during it.  When he finally made his way to the bed and pulled my top off, my pussy was aching for him and my nipples were pulsing with electrifying tingles as my hand reached down and felt his rock-hard cock.  His tongue traced the edges of my nipples, so warm, wet and comforting.  At this point, I’m no longer a Pornstar.  I am just woman getting some of the most amazing pleasure one can imagine.  My legs open and he instinctively heads down between them.  My juices flowing out of me from the orgasm I just gave myself as he tastes me.  I want to cry from the pleasure his mouth gives me as it suctions closed around my swollen clit already at the point of orgasming again.

His mouth was so perfect, his tongue flicking up and down directly over my exposed clit. I reached down and stroked his face with the same loving caress I’ve used with actual boyfriends in the past because I am submersed in the pleasure he is giving me and just want him to feel good too.  As I cum in his mouth and my clit contracts on his tongue he moans loudly from the feel and taste of my orgasm and that only excites me even more.  By now I am aching to have him inside of me and I want it missionary style, so I can be kissed and caressed and held closely to him as his thickness penetrates me.  I fuck him like a woman in love, because in those moments, I truly am.

My back arches and I cry out as his hard cock pounds into my cervix, his touch makes me want to lose my mind from the pleasure it sends coursing through me.  As he fucks me, I ache for his cum, I desire nothing more than to feel this man I barely know hold me closely while he releases everything, he has inside of me.  I crave it.  Maybe some don’t understand why any woman would want to be a Pornstar, but I personally wonder why they don’t.  You’re watching a Pornstar shooting a scene while a real woman just loving sex receives a big, thick pussy filling cock for pleasure on the other side of things.  He felt so amazing as he pulled me on top of him.  I straddle him and rock back and forth on his long, hard shaft.  We pull at each other, longingly holding each other tight.  I’m in disbelief at how amazing his cock feels and he can see that by the look in my eyes as I brightly stare on my way to lovingly kiss his lips.  My way of thanking him for the pleasure he’s giving me.

I love the scenes where our bodies fit together like gloves and this particular one was one of them.  He was just the perfect fit and when he held me tight, I honestly didn’t want the scene to end.  I sit straight up allowing the head of his cock to just sort of massage me deeply for a moment, loving the sensations from the rounded head giving me a nice internal rubdown.  I feel him begin to swell inside of me and I can feel my pussy opening inside, swelling to receive the hot, liquid that feels so good going in.  His cock so big, as he began to cum I could feel every single… hot… burst hitting me deeply inside and I wanted him to feel good too, so badly I nearly cried as he filled me.  His cum was what I needed that day.  I wasn’t a Pornstar; I was woman getting her pussy filled just like she wished for.

I leaned down kissing him, celebrating a perfect scene and the feeling of the ample cream pie he just gave me that was now spilling back out.  I laid in his arms and truth be told we dozed off for a bit after.  These are the things a sexual, erotic woman who loves being fucked and filmed actually experiences when shooting for you.  😉 I hope that makes you love it even more.